Reflection:
Rather surprisingly, I am still alive. The cancer in my body, has, against all expectations, not claimed me. It has, however, made me the object of a lot of attention. Those who care have poured out their love, and I’ve been responsible for using up a good deal of their emotional energy – so much so, that I sometimes feel guilty. And when this happens, I can wonder what my purpose is.
Then I reflect back on the extraordinary journey of the last five years – years of weakness when I have been pathetic… but also years in which books were written and extraordinary opportunities to share the gospel have come my way.
So I smile, for I have found the truth of the apostle Paul’s statement: ‘for when I am weak, then I am strong’ (2 Corinthians 12:10). That’s the difference God makes.
So, may I say this: If you are still alive, you are not yet finished. God has either got more ideas about your ministry, or some ideas about refining you or those around you. So, whilst you are alive, never think you have no purpose.
Prayer: My dear Lord, the big things you have placed in my heart founder on my weakness. I know I can do nothing unless I lean back into your strength. Please teach me to rely on you and trust you.