Reflection: There is an uneasy truce in my body between my immuno-therapy (which kills the cancer but wrecks the body) and steroids (which protect the body but rejuvenates the cancer). I’m told it is not a truce that can last. This war of attrition has left me in a state of weariness. I now find it hard to read for more than twenty minutes.
A wise friend told me not to be troubled by this. He said, “Your ministry now will be shaped more by who you are as a result of a lifetime walking with God, rather than sharing new things learned from reading books.”
I found this thought emancipating… and was humbled by it. It caused me to pause and reflect on what God has done during my life––for I can easily forget. The truth is: no one can stay the same as a result of walking with God.
And I am intensely glad of that.
Prayer: Dear Lord Jesus, The Bible invites me to be the aroma of Christ. It is difficult to think I could aspire to such a calling, but I want to. Please give me the strength to reflect your grace and truth faithfully, for that is my heart’s desire. Amen.