Reflection: I’ve had trust issues all my life.
My early family life was difficult, and I grew up in an unhappy home. If I’d been raised in a Christian home I might have learnt to trust God, but I didn’t have that to fall back on, and unfortunately after a string of very real tragedies, my family completely disintegrated in a world of pain.
No surprises then that as a teenager, I made a mess of these and my early adult years and by the time God sought me out through the work of a Navy chaplain I was able to truly identify with the words of the Psalmist.
I became new, no question about it – my life was entirely transformed – and I have tried to follow Jesus every day of my life since. But in times of difficulty or confusion, my trust issues tend to resurface, and I become anxious and doubt ridden. Rather than turning to God, I tend to turn away. I wonder if you can identify.
Question: Do you have trust issues? Can you identify the cause of these? What harm does your lack of trust cause?
Prayer: I believe in you Lord, and I want to trust you. Thank you for the times I can identify your hand and your presence. And forgive me when I can’t or when I neglect to. Amen.